R.I.P

Picture above, my all time favourite pet, : Cristi !
Obvious that she's a rabbit huh, ?
But sadly, she's officially gone on 24th May 2010 , from 11.45pm nearing to 12am.
I cant control but let my tears flowed down my cheeks,
and they didnt seem to stop.
Even now.
Thinking about her just make my heart shatter and CRY.
I know, it has left peacefully to the other world,
but i just couldnt let go of her.
Being with her together for 3 years, who could let her go ?
At a young age of 4, she just left.
I still remembered the times when i first bought her,
(picture shown above)
all so fierce and always growl .
How cute .
But yesterday, she just lay there and went to sleep,
never woke up again.
Was it my fault ?
I didnt fulfil my part of taking care of her, did i ?
I just want her to know,
that she will always remain in my heart,
No matter what, i will never ever forget her.
I promise.
Every min, i was thinking about her,
our happy times,
how i used to carry her around and played with her.
it was all so wonderful,
but suddenly, everything was just a dream,
and it came a nightmare.
i know i have to let it go,
because living things do come and go any day, any time , any where.
I just cant.
I know i have another rabbit to accompany me,
but the feeling isnt the same.
On saturday, she was all weak and tired,
resting her head on the ground,
not moving, but breathing.
Even with that tiny little hope i had on her,
i knew she was trying her best to live.
never give up,
bringing it to the vet will only put her to sleep.
So i decided to spent the last few moments with her,
before she leaves.
I am sorry , Cristi. I really am.
I am selfish, I couldnt save you.
When my father brought it for cremation yesterday midnight,
the other rabbit was smelling and searching about for her.
Not only that, it didnt even want to fill her stomach,
but just kept on searching for her.
I really treasured the times ,
i really do.
I just hope that, in her next life,
she will live a better life than her previous .
It's not even a day passed and i already started missing you .
i love you! :(
I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU !